The like of riddles, rhymes and mysteries

I've found that being in love is an amazing feeling and previous to my current relationship, I had never really felt what it was to be in love. A bit random, but painfully true.

Anyway, my birthday is coming up in about a month and I'm excited for it. I'll be 18; an adult, able to do what I want, when I want and finally able to have control over my life. It's going to be vindicating, I'd say.

( Private to my dearest Simon Mycroft )

Is it a bit ridiculous that I enjoy Halloween so much? Perhaps it's not so much the ghouls and ghosts that entice me as much as it is the dressing up and the candy. Of course I've not been trick or treating since I was a wee little thing but there is still more than enough candy to go around. Though I think this year I'll attend Ms. Hart's party, since it sounds interesting and like it will be extremely fun.

What are the rest of you out there planning to do?

Happy first day of fall. To be honest, it's one of my favorite holidays. The colours are like no other, with all the browns, oranges and golds. For some strange reason the harvest season - especially the evenings - have a distinct smell. It's clean and it's...well, it smells like Autumn. This is the season I enjoy going out in and just walking until I'm too tired to walk anymore. I like sitting down with my journal and writing around the landscape around me because it's just so absolutely gorgeous.

I also love the rain, since we're entering the 'it's going to rain almost every day' season. Is anyone else excited for Halloween? I hear Kaitalyn is throwing a mascaraed ball which is actually pretty brilliant, if one things about it. However, it also means I'll have to find a really neat mask which may be harder than it seems since I want it to be something that will suit my personality. Though I also sort of want to go trick or treating, just for the fun of it. So maybe I'll leave the party early or something of the sort and get some of the left over candy once the little ones have made their rounds.

Anyway, I think I'm going to sleep with the window open tonight so I can stare out at the moon and smell that sweet, Autumn night air; so I can feel the slightly frosty nip that comes this time of year. Maybe if I pay close enough attention I'll actually learn something from the world around me just by observing tonight.

Maybe. But for now I'll leave you with a bit of properly themed prose:

Pumpkins in the cornfields
Gold among the brown
Leaves of rust and scarlet
Trembling slowly down
Birds that travel southward
Lovely time to play
Nothing is as pleasant
As an autumn day!

I was allowed to touch a brain today and observe a kidney transplant. It was bloody amazing, let me tell you. There is nothing more fascinating than the human body. Whether it was created by a God or by evolution, I don't know for sure but just...watching them operate. Watching the surgeons toy with such a perfectly tuned instrument was almost artful. Hell, it was artful.

However amazing it was, though, I did prefer speaking with some of the clinic patients. Working with patients, I find, is where my passion truly lies. I'm not quite sure what I like so much about it...I just do.

After all that, I'm exhausted.

And plan to sneak into Simon's room so I can curl against him and fall asleep...

( Private )

No matter how much I enjoy classes, I believe I love weekends even more. They give me a chance to lay back, relax, catch up on work spend time with Simon and listen to mass amounts of music while I write.

Lately I've been sort of into Coldplay's newest album, while also dabbling a bit in the Rolling Stone's earlier stuff. Plus I have quite a lot of random bits thrown into the mix. So now I'm curious as to what the rest of my peers are listening to.

Thus, the question: What are the songs you just can't stop listening to?

There is something about the works of Edgar Allen Poe that keep me reading story after story, poem after poem. I believe it's the darkness in the majority of them that please my senses and darker thoughts, or perhaps it's merely the beautiful stanzas and perfectly placed words that keep me tuned in and interested.

None the less, it's a bloody brilliant thing to read before bed. My mother purchased for me his complete works last Christmas so I dare say I won't run out of Edgar anytime soon. This year I'm hoping for something similar to tide me over until the following Christmas, though of course I don't expect gifts because if I did than the meaning of the gift will be severely lessened.

Oh, in other news: I can't join the army. Apparently I have a medical condition that keeps me from qualifying. I'm disappointed but I suppose it was just never meant to be.

I went in to see an Army recruiter today and he gave me a lot of information on what will be required of me physically and paper work wise in December. He said he can get me in tomorrow after classes to run me through a few drills just to make sure I'm physically up to snuff and said after that I need to go see a doctor and get a physical.

So...I think this whole thing is really going to happen. I still have a few months to turn back so we'll see how well I do tomorrow. If I think I can handle the physical extremes, I'm pretty sure I can handle the rest.

Outside of that classes today were actually kind of fun. Also, I wrote some new poetry. Something about the summer coming to an end simply inspired me I think. Hopefully there will be at least one more nice day and night, so maybe I can go camp out with a sleeping bag in a courtyard to bid the summer night sky farewell.

We should have a big camp out amongst the students, actually. That'd be sort of cool, yeah?

I think I've decided to join the military.

At first I thought school was for me but I'm bored and restless. I'm almost old enough to properly enlist, so I think that's what I'm going to end up doing when my birthday rolls around. I'll be 18 come December, after all. Perhaps I could be a practicing medic. It would certainly...be something, I think. Something toward my future goal of being a doctor.

I've a quick question for any of the staff: Are pets allowed? Or more specifically, are fish? I can understand why dogs and cat wouldn't be allowed in the dorms but how about small rodents like rats and hamsters, or bunnies? Or reptiles like small lizards and fish? It'd be nice to know because I would rather like to get some fish...

Or maybe a bunny, if they are allowed.

In other news: Oh Good Lord classes are tiring.

I couldn't sleep last night, even with my iPod in. The room is just so empty and I'm not used to that. Back home at least one of the cats or the dog would always be in the room with me. Or on hot days my sister would sleep in the extra bed because my room tends to be cooler than hers...yet here I'm alone.

Guess all I can do it hope for a roommate soon. Perhaps then I could actually get a bit of sleep.

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
-Robert Frost

Two days of bloody school - soon to be three. Guess I can start checking off the days on my calendar until Winter break. It may be strange but that's what I always look forward to when the school year begins. It means Christmas and the related holidays are drawing nearer and that pleases me for some strange reason. I suppose I just really love the holidays.

Though I think it's a bit early to be rejoicing, since I've got a few months but oh well. A boy can dream can he not?

I don't understand how people can actually enjoy living in a dorm room. School hasn't even started yet and my parents insist I stay here on campus until it does! Mind, it's only in a few days but still...I'd rather have stayed a bit longer in London instead of moping about this place. Though I suppose 'tis better I take a few days to wander around and get to know the area than show up the day before classes start and panic because I don't know where anything is.

At least I've a laptop to keep myself entertained. It was a "gift" of sorts from my parents for this boarding school since I won't have the desktop like I did at home. I'd rather it not run Vista but...I'm not the type of bloke who is very computer-savvy. Thus I doubt I'd be able to fix it.

...whatever. Anyway, since my shite is finally all set up I think I may go spend some time in the courtyard. I'll write something perhaps.

( I'll tell you a few of my favorite things )